Probably you already aware of what’s going on.
I found the reason for worrying. Found the reason to be there even when you won’t thought that I would appear.I can sense that you are not feeling really comfortable when I am around already. However, honestly. The thought of you feeling irritated, the thought of you might fall sick just worries me.
Sigh. Probably this space is a place that you would only pop by once in a while. who knows right?
Rest well Readers(:
Peaceout^^
J
Had really been happening recently. I do feel tired and strained after some time.
I wished for something I longed for and it some what came true. I do feel so tired now. Maybe that’s the reason why I kept having dizzy spells. sigh.
I want to settle down quickly. Serious.
I long for performance on stage,colors in my life. However, guess much what I really need, is someone to confide to, to worry for and dote on. Looking for someone you would adore is tough, having it to be mutual is even tough. Hopefully by the age of 20, I can step into the new phase of my life. Praying hard.
Off I go Readers(: May all the Gentlemen out there find your fine Ladies.
Peaceout^^
J
Love
Something you give and couldn’t take.
Something that makes you feels the ache.
How to tell you
I had fallen deeply for you?
Today’s been rather nice? Manage to ask questions during class just now.Feel that I achieved something this evening after so many lessons at TMA! ALwaighhhtttt^^
I don’t want anymore weird and unnecessary attention on me anymore. I finding difficulty to cope sometimes. I really feel damn damn damn damn damn damn guilty. I can’t say it out yet I don’t want . . . ugh ! forget it!!!
Readers. Sorry for all the emotional posts recently.
Peaceout^^
J
If you think that this is an emo post,cant stand it press the cross on the top right^^
Guess much everyone has his or her emotional threshold level.
I think sometimes I reached mine.Sometimes.
This year had started. Alright seriously I think I kinda screwed it so far. I feel it. It just seems like it’s coming anytime sooner. I hate it. I really wish that I could have someone to confide everything to. I trying to open myself to almost everyone that I can be close with. But…It just seems so tough.
I gotta be real honest to myself. I really havent been totally honest with everyone. Not that I don’t trust anyone. But I am just insecure. Insecure for real deep shit I think I gonna face. Paranoid on everything I see.Whatever. Probably no one would pay much attention sometimes to whatever I say. Isn’t it?
Please! Let me have the confidence. The self confidence to let me overcome obstacles I’m facing right now. I hadn’t had any religious support for all of my obstacles. Sometimes I do feel like giving up however I find strength in rationale. Rationale,please give me strength to overcome.
Readers,please be safe and sound and emotionally stable and all. Peace will be with you(:
Peaceout^^
J
Happy New Yea 2011^^
Alright! this would be the first post of the year and is gonna be on the 2nd day of new year. Alright, a summary of year 2o1o. Let’s see what I had completed:
-Did lots of school camps. As per usual.
-Part of April Orientation Organizing committee.
-MP Life(: Awesome much.
-In Love but didn’t work out:\
-Drank till I puke for the very first time.Sucks ttm.
-Change my lifestyle for a bit. Start gigging^^
– Got into L.I.F.E where I meet lots of wonderful people^^
Erm probably thats what I had thought of so far for the time being. Last year’s resolution was to be healthy and all. Alright barely make it cause the last few days of my 2010 I went for an minor eye surgery. Rest was great^^ This year started. New year always bring new hope. However, is kinda weird for me this year. NSmen would be part of my life soon. real soon. a lot of things that I would like to experience I hadn’t had a chance yet!
I would really wish to travel to the mecca of kpop. South Korea. Before I go to the island of green men. I would really wish, no more hidings and such, get a girlfriend. Second wish seems to be even tougher than the first one. Serious. Announcing such news on your own,on your own blog, is really weird and sounds super desperate. Well. Kinda. I do feel I’, loosing the self-confidence in me day by day:\ oh well. Maybe I haven’t met the one I really like yet? Who knows?
Alright~ My new year wishes shall be combined into one new year resolution(:
Stay positive,happy and be myself.Everything would be in place no matter what.
Thought of your new resolutions already Readers? If not, what you waiting for! January would be ending with a blink of an eye! THINK THINK THINK!
Peaceout^^
J
Knowing what you want
Like what is indicated on the title. I am quite lost already. sigh
Update!
Alright. I think is really long since I had a proper update. Basically my life recently has been rather. . . packed.
Yup. Packed. Packed with school academic stuffs. MP Judging. Quizes. Projects. Reports. All of these are burning my nice weekends away, not to say to have the time to spend with my Rally or out to watch a movie. Pretty sad life uh?
Oh well. It’s the last semester of my Polytechnic life. Nothing else would be more important than the grades this semester. Really wished that I would score well in this Sem. At least. Really score well in this semester. Nothing else is more important already I guess.
Oh and did I mention that my life’s been quite a mess right now? Situations I never met before and I really don’t know how to answer. sigh. maybe it would be resolved sooner or later. whatever.
Oh! AND I DREAMT OF TAEYEON LAST NIGHTTT! OMGGG! IT’S SURREAL^^ Just that when it turn out to be a dream, is just disappointing. ugh.
Peaceout^^
J
S-Pop^^
Had been going for guitar lessons for quite some time. Think that I haven’t been progressing much. Can’t let this carry on,seriously! After MP judging, it means serious long practicing and jamming,hopefully. *laughing in excitement*
Kinda into local music bands recently ever since I joined Timbre Music Academy. A school with instructors that do Live gigging! Awesome much. Seriously, I blogged about this before and I going to do it again,maybe a bit ambitious than before to spur me on for it, I want to go on the stage of Timbre to perform! With my classmates or instructors’ band or something! I really looking forward to that day evening to come! Meanwhile, I had been listening to the several bands from Timbre. Namely, Goodfellas and 53A(: These 2 are my favourite bands in Singapore Music industry. Serious.
Awesome isn’t it? Up next is 53A. The lead vocals looks and sounds superb! Everytime I see her, I would…*shy*
What do you want from meee~
I can’t want much more but maybe to attend your sessions in the future? Alright maybe a last one with vocals from the 2 bands I recommended performing together?
I just love their covers. Nothing much to say about cause they are really brillant singers. I love Chinese Pop, K-Pop,English bands and definitely not to forget, S-Pop!
Alright, rather long post for the week I guess! Gotta go now(:
Take care and sleep well in this chilly night!
*Oh ya! And there’s no intention of publcising for TMA or anything cause I am not paid for it.
Peaceout^^
J
Novembrrrrr (x
Finally it’s November. Guess much I got lesser and lesser time before judging,which I seriously hope that it’s not judgement day*fingers crossed*
Trying to adapt back to the busy life I had with club commitments now. Having a slight difficulty to adjust it back cause I had off the engine already:\
Looking at the new faces in the department. Seriously, I hope they learn new things and would stayed on! FAs! I may not be with you guys for ETC and OH, my spirit will be with you! Enough of ramblings. Time to go off.
Rest well Readers!
Peaceout^^
J
A Beautiful Mess
Caught up this song by one of my favourite singer,Jason Mraz. Think he’s a really special singer that’s sings in a laid back,relaxing yet meaningful manner. I first heard Mang’s cover for this song and I think it’s awesome!
How true! Peaceful song. Enjoy it!
Off I go now Readers(:
Peaceout^^
J
OCTOBER ENDING!
It’s time that I should post something up again. Like finally?! Ended October Orientation. Seems like I’m sleeping lesser and lesser for the orientation camps. From 4hours each in April till this one which is 3-4hours for 3d2n. Totally crazy.
Thanks for Angkor Beer singlet and the Alphabets Tshirt my friends got for me(: I wore them and I totally love em(: The Angkor singlet makes me feels I damn fair. SERIOUSLY! Thanks Prog for the tshirt You got for me^^ Is awesome and comfortable^^
Still feeling weird after clocking 7hours of sleep. Seems like I still need more of them before work tomorrow. FAINTS!
Rest well Readers that went for the camp and drink up more as the weather is damn hazy. Darn.
Peaeout ^^
J
Envy
Seriously I had no idea why I actually typed out the several paragraphs in this blog instead on the other one. Oh well~ It doesn’t really matters anyway. Disappointment has been a bugger in 19 years of my life.Big and small. Small one that I had today but still It does affect me as a whole for the past 10 plus months. Minor accomplishments only I say.
Haiya why always like this arh~ Why arh~ and then all the silly things would flow and surface out. Supposely were to write something about Envy but it turned out to be something else cause I don’t think it fits back the title. I can’t think of any title yet so if You think that your name is suitable to be placed on my Title of this post, comment on the post(:
Is 2 am already and I gotta wake up early tomorrow. G.G!
Everytime you walk by,
You gave me butterflies.
Everytime I finds it out,
is normally a lil late.
When I know I shouldn’t be typing this,
I still type it out.
Knowing that You would read it,
I still type it out.
Congatulations to be with him,
stay happy and smile to him.
Wave at me when you still see me,
cause it sure would make a diff.
Drop the idea of carry on,
look forward and keep move on
cause time will not hold on
You’re the beautiful rose with lots of thorns,
hold you up and my skin got torn.
I know what’s going on
but I would still want to seek for more.
I think for now I put it as Envy first. If you thought of a better name! TELL ME!(: Night readers(:
Peaceout^^
J
Tiring Day
It’s 2:49am in the middle of the night. Current location: BUNK! You’re right. In school having camp with the err… new people and old people I would say. It’s kinda new and refresh now attending camp. Never had this kind of feeling for quite a long period of time already. Probably because I had not been going for much camps ever since April Orientation. Feel a lil culture shock.
The morning recee drained me. Off all my energy I had for the day, not to say that I had a camp that ends on Wednesday. Good luck man J. Once in a while, I think such camp is awesome. Enjoy the late night supper due to the late night bathing session with department and also the main reason is the debrief session. Tired I would say. The fun is definitely there. Oh well. I wouldn’t be spending much time in TP Engine school too, must make full use of it by going camps once in a while and do the things I would always want to.
Waiting for my McChicken that’s taking its own sweet time flying to the bunk. Off I go now.
Sleep well and rock on hard Readers and campers!
Peaceout^^
J
Roktober:D
Guess much this is the first post I made for October. Working had been eating lot of my time cause to enjoy my personal time, I sleep late and wake up late every-d-a-y.*sync-ing with Just The Way You Are*
Dad spurred me on my journey a little. Guess much he’s complaining I had been contemplating and wasting time too much on the guitar and want be to focus or proper chords,techniques,solos. Practically focus my effort to practice. Probably he’s tired of the nonsense I had been playing so far. Alright DaD! I shall keep to the promise we made! Serious:D Of course! Not to forgo about schoolwork also(:
Guess much I start to listen to English songs a bit more but not as much as my Kpop crazy playlist though. Gotta brush up on all theories and techniques that’s bothering my progress in class! Go for it J! GOGOGO!
Daebak^^ Pursue your goals Readers!
Peaceout^^
J
Memories…
Memories seems to be one of the best thing that one can ever have. I was going through my photos to search for a new Display Picture. All photos brings me back a lot of memories. Orientation, Birthday Celebrations and Monday Craze and a lot and alot and goes on and on…
I need to take more photos! With HAIR!~ Realise how LONG my hair really was when I use to say that it isn’t. How ironic HAHA!
Rest well and to all friends that has troubles or frustrations coming your way, all bad things comes to an end and is always sunny after the cloudy days. Brace up and stay positive! 😀
Peaceout^^
J
Was popping on the gig-ging pill in the afternoon and another dose of it in the evening after work. Seriously! When can I start gigging with my friends in a band?!?!?! I really wish too! Writing songs with your friends. Jamming into a world that only the 5-6 of you belongs to.
Looking at videos of Jayesslee(Youtube band, the post below), 53A, Goodfellas and all other bands. I REALLY REALLY appreciate Live music. Guitar,keyboard,bass,drums,vocals. What else do you need? Audience maybe? I envy those people in band!
Please grant this small wish of mine!!! PLEASEEE^^
Peaceout^^
J
Cause You Are Amazing, Just The Way You Are(:
Is now 2:47Am on my right-bottom of my laptop now. Finally finished the drama. LIKE FINALLY. Started work today with wonderful colleagues and working environment. Guess much I think I suit sales though I don’t really like it though.
My fave Youtube group Jayesslee (AKA Janice and Sonia) posted their new video up on Youtube again! It’s like months already since their last upload. 2months?Around the re I guess. Oh well since now they uploaded this wonderful song they covered, I think I am just going to share it around. Stay tune for more of their performance(:
Originally from Bruno Mars. Haven’t heard of the Original one yet. However, the lyrics and progression seems wonderful so shouldn’t be a disappointment,I hope. Enjoy the song and. . .
Peaceout^^
J
An Update before Work commences again.
A few days breaks totally ruined my momentum to work. Serious. Good times really flies by.
Oh well. Gotta reset my mentality and body for work tomorrow. Is in the evening so shouldn’t be that much of a problem. At least not for the part that I need to wake up early in the morning(:
A week almost gone so far, haven’t been doing much but just spending.The whole house is on a shopping spree! Awesome! And now even my mum got an iPhone4. How awesome is that?! KBox last night was suicidal cause tried many killer songs along the way. Oh ya! Had my teeth washed clean and the hole covered. Totally impromptu. Finished the nice torture and headed down to Plaza Sing to watch Resident Evil.
I gonna say this a thousand times but I still gonna say! Milla Jovovich IS DAMN! HOT! PRETTY! COLD!
I can only say that this week is an enjoyable one. No work since Monday.
The whole thing is just a lesson to me. To let me know how the society is so rotten inside when it looks damn good on the outside. To let me know how to be real flexible and not to be at disadvantage in the future anymore.
Gotta go off now!
Peaceout^^
J
I feel as though the thing I dread most building in me. Why? Gotta remove it from me. I want the C not the A. Got it?!
Peaceout^^
J
3/4 of year To-Do list Stock take.
Thought that it is only fair enough that I update this space with words again. Sorry Readers. I had been facing mooncakes so I coudn’t a lot of things that I really desired to. Guitar had beeen overly underused. I am so sorry my darling guitar that I neglected you so much. As usual, work has been stupid I guess. Minimum pay. However! The company there, the aunties(Godmonthers and Godgrandmonther) and the jokes we have there are of totally awesome level. I would miss them after my work with them on Wednesday,I guess.
Finished K-On Season 2. Graduation. Sighs. Like I mentioned in the previous post, I would really REALLY! miss my classmates alot. The nonsense, the quarrels, the laughter, the tears and everything.
How I wish I wouldn’t graduate.At times. Although we would still be able to meet up after graduation, it seriously sinks my heart to the abyss at times when I thought of graduation. Not only the seperation, a bigger responsibility starts to lands on you. Had lunch with Godma Catherine and was talking about overseas studies and such. To leave this little red dot. To pursue my passion. I know I couldn’t and I guess I could only pin my hope at the later age, or maybe my son or daughters next time. Goals I set for myself this year, comes to think of it I had completed half of them! Shall carry on pushing myself of the limits so that I could accomplish them,AT LEAST!
Reminder!
1. To save up and have cash ready for next year graduation trip and hopefully,S.Korea trip*fingers crossed!*
2. To get better with my Rally.She’s neglected by me.
3. Stay happy and healthy.
Goal no.3 goes to all Readers!
Off to sleep already. Nights!
Peaceout^^
J
Seniority
Finally an off day for me before the last week of madness carry on. Supposely got much to say but yeah. I’m too tired to type it out now at 0123hours.
Is the last year and I think I am missing you guys every moment, every meal and even shower times.
Shall carry on the blog tomorrow morning(:
Sleep well Readers^^
Peaceout^^
J
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